i went home after the exams not sure of passing and because of alot of expectations, im too shy to face people at the moment. i just wanted to melt.
so i decided to meet up with him (the only constant guy in my life for six years now). it was a pretty long ride, i was exhausted and hungry when I arrived at my destination so he made me sit directly at the dinning table. yes i was hungry, but sitting beside him is enough for me. that moment, i felt invinsible.
i was alone watching Dead Poets Society using his laptop when i saw a tweet from joie which linked the exam results from prc. suddenly, my heart's beat was more than the definition of a tachycardia! it was only a day after the exam and there was i, staring at the link which will dictate the rest of my life.
funny as in may seem, but i was too afraid to open the link so i logged out from both facebook and tweeter and shut my cellphone off. all i wanted was some time of isolation from the world.
realizing that i had no choice because one way or another i will know the results whether i like it or not, i opened the link, eyes closed.
i searched for my friends name first and they all passed! i was too frightened to type mine in the "find" tab so i scrolled through the page until "M", stoppped and prayed. and there was my name
"MANINGAT, MARIA EDA INFANTE"
my tears was unstoppable.
"Thank You God" seemed to be the only words left in my vocabulary.
then he came in.
he was the first person who knew that i am, that time a registered pharmacist. (i wanted him to be the first one actually) i hugged him and tears came falling again. that became the best moment of my life right now. "euphoria" falls a little short for the perfect word to describe it.
i was hysterical but he was just so calm, like nothing life-changing happened in my life. i thought at that jiffy he really does not care after all.
i asked him to buy a few bottles of beer, so we did. while in his car driving along a deserted road beside an ocean, i was almost shouting my lungs out and kind'a like a fake cd which says the same phrase over and over again. it was a moment when you can almost say "I can die right now!"
the view was breath taking, the stars shone brightly which lit the dim winding road, the ocean seemed to reflect the light coming from the stars and there was i, sitting in the passenger seat right beside the gentleman that i always wanted to be with.
it was almost midnight when i called the celebration off because im almost drunk and I dont want to be drunk on my first night of being a pharmacist.
as we were walking away from the kubo along a cliff, i told him again the same phrase that i've been telling him all night long and then I ended it up with:
"Bakit parang hindi ka naman masaya for me."
and he answered: "Because Im not that surprised."
...and everything became perfect. my though was almost like "I can die right now!"
what more could i ask for?
what else of a celebration can be happier that what just happened?
he is i think, the only guy who accepts me for who i am.
i asked him one week ago if he'll hate me if i fail the board exam, and after asking that question, i felt stupid with what he answered. of course he will never ever hate me. he never did and will never do.
like what a famous song says:
This is the moment, i thank God that Im alive. This is the moment i'll remember all my life. I have all i've waited for and i could not ask for more!
