Para bang

nakipag break sa isang relasyong hindi naman nag-eexist
binasted ng taong hindi naman niligawan
inindyan ng kadate na hindi naman sinabihan
di nireplyang ng katext na hindi naman tinext

para bang binuhusan ng malamig na tubig ang pusong nagliliyab sa pag-ibig.
para bang inekisan ang sagot na check naman dapat
para bang nag goodbye sa hello

para bang winasak ang pusong hindi naman nabuo
para bang naglaho sa kamay ang bagay hindi naman hinawakan


kanikanina lang,
parang inilock-out na nya ang mundo nya sa mundo ko.
13 years lang naman ang pagitan ng daigdig namin.
hindi naman kami parang langit at lupa.



Okaya baka natamaan siya sa stat ko na :
"He's 93% gay"

bading ka kasi.
:p

sa hinaharap, luluhod ka sa harapan ko at magmamakaawa.

salamat at tinutulungan mo akong kalimutan ka.
salamat at kahit papaano hindi na ako mahihirapang makaget-over sayo.
salamat at makakasagot na ako sa recitation ng maayos.

*at doon nag tatapos ang kwento namin ng
lalake sa kulay green kong tumbler.
ng lalake sa corridor.

some things i'll miss for two weeks of vacation

1. dapitan night life

who would not miss that crazy night around dapitan?

not only do i miss the sweet alcohol from Tapsi, Da Pit and 330mL
but also
that dead tired feeling when i walk our from our campus dizzy, having stinging headache and the sensation of being tortured (which always haunt me and reminds of an extended laboratory work at FLR Lab4 because of pharmacognosy)
and also that
disappointed feeling after you see that colorful test papers of yours, week after your exam week with not so nice scores
and the
24/7 computer shops which become battle ground for computer games addict, refuge for those who were locked our of their dormitory because they did not come home before curfew and home for those who simply like to surf the net, facebook all night long and chat unstoppably.
plus
the newly opened Starbucks coffee a the ground floor of Pacific Suites which becomes the habitat of bookworms and nerd people at midnight
as well as those
27/7 tapsihan especially along Asturias. they rock the night when one is hungry and at the same time nagtitipid! :D
whle wendy's is open 24/7 too for those hindi nagtitipid! :D
(and their washroom is open too, so for those drunk people wandering arond dapitan at night, straighten up your walk and go to the fourth floor of Wendy's, its for free!) XD
also the
Seven11 and Ministop which sells the most luscious cigarettes when all the bangketa's are already closed.

[i think its safe naman to walk around dapitan at night because i see some security guard and barangay tanod watching the area)



2. 4th floor's Open Sandwich
this is the most awesome food inside the Main building of the University of Santo Tomas!!!
why?
because when your stomach is already grunting and your intestines are already eating and digesting each other but you do not have enough time to eat (because either you are going to do your assignments, laboratory manual or report pa or you you just robbed a couple of minuets in between classes) just go up to the top most floor of the oldest building in Asia and there you'll find the BigMan frying the coolest food for your starving stomach:
OPEN SANDWICH!
50Pesos.
busog ka na!
(egg, your choice kung paano i ffry, footlong hotdog, a pair of sandwich)





3. Dorm/condo/apartment - Life
there are two things i miss about living independently in Manila

ONE: you can do what ever you want to. you have the choice.

you get to choose to either ruin your life,
drink alcohol every night, ignore your professors as frequently as you want to, puff cigarette every other minuet, not attend your classes all day long, fail exams, fail your subjects, fail your course and be kicked out of your university
OR you get the choice to be nerdy, read book all day long inside the library, loose friends, ace your exams, perfect your quizzes, forget about social life, get 1.0 in your class cards, be magna cumlaude, become a loner eating by himself in a fancy restaurant.
OR you get the choice to be cool and stay at school and have goals in life. attend class as long as there are scheduled classes, you may be late sometimes sa first class in the morning, not get perfect scores all the time yet get perfect scores some times, go online and surf the internet after class, then read and study in the library or in your home after internet, puff a few cigarettes, hang out with friends (who will become your life-ling colleague), go out with barkada every weekends or every time you're free, not forget about advance reading, do reports and assignment ahead of time (para makaHang-ut or gimmick pa rin kahit super tight na ng schedule :D), drink liquor sometimes, do not sleep if it's already 4am and you just finished reviewing and your exam is seven or eight in the morning (promise, you wont wake up na! unless there's a concerned roommate). finish your course without an F in your class cards, graduate in time (sige, graduate cum laude or graduate magne cumlaude!) XD

TWO: you have the freedom to be suuuuper tamad all day long. wake up late in the morning (if there are no classes). eat whenever you want to (eat all day or not eat because you are soo lazy to get up form bed). get to be infront of the computer as long as you can (maybe until your eyes are bloody red already). watch your ants travel around the walls of your kitchen.

4. Professors
who wont miss them?

when they laugh at you right after they give loads and loads of requirements, reports, assignments and you have one week to figure out how to be able to pass them in time.
when they come inside your freezing classroom with a bundle of test papers with problems to be solved which you aren't ready yet to answer
when they schedule a quiz which happens to be in the same day with your other subjects' quizzes
when they assign you a report which you have no clue what is it about
when then call you to recite the entire Kreb's Cycle or when they call you to answer their on-the-spot question which you happened to not know because you have not reached that page for advance reading.
when they keep rejecting your thesis proposals
when they chuckle after they give you your answer sheet in your exam
when they tell you, "kaya nyo yan. tsaga lang"
when they consider your schedule and show some love and move scheduled exams
when they pass you in their subjects
when they talk to you, like kabarkada and advice you what to do to be able to hold on the the remaining weeks of the semester.
when they smile at you and show them they cared for you and for the rest of his students

5. Pharmacology + Pharmacognosy

who would not miss the traumatic life in FLR Lab 4 every MWF 10-12am?
two weeks will be our break from Pharmacognosy. two weeks will feel like heaven on earth!
because when the classes resume, there ill be a FESTIVAL of QUIZZES for us, again.
another almost 150 scientific names to memorize.
biologicals.
chapters and chapters of quizzes..
practical tests..
laboratory works..
every meeting overtime Lecture hours..
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Pharmacology!
my favorite subject.
why?
because of two things..
1. it's challenging and kinda hard o understand so you need your
2. professor to explain it to you and roll his cute eyes in front of the class.

i dont know if i will hate or love my classmates when they tease me everytime i recite in front of the class. XD
i like pharmacology.
alot :D


two weeks of Vacation..
two weeks of nothing.

except of course if I will choose to read and study in advance for Pharmacology and for our Festival of Quizzes in Pharmacognosy
and if i will choose that choice, umm, Christmas Day will be like Byernes Santo!
:D

hello again because of him

almost six weeks ago i told myself that I will try to be a good lady
..starting immediately this semester
..and that crazy semestral break would be my last farewell to
bad habits.

i tried..

for five weeks since classes resumed, i really struggled to shun those bad habits which apparently are also drug inducers
[which may cause Adverse Drug Reactions and Hepatotoxicity ]
(sabi sa pharmacology)

i did my best to avoid Sammy and Allan
(another word in place of the real term para di masyadong vulgar XD).
~but i guess my best wasn't good enough!~
(haha)

Allan is very difficult to stay away from because of my peers.
And besides, Allan is our/my only stress reliever when the going gets tough and the nights become restless.

While choosing Sally's glee is really up to me to decide.
i only have few friends who are addicted to Sally
so i can manage to ignore them whenever i want to
and ignore Sally altogether.
i have not tried Sally, as far as i can remember since the classes began

but just an hour ago,
i found out that my most favorite Man of the semester
is also addicted to Sally! it shows by his manners.
grr. i did not expect to unravel that info,
it just came from nowhere,
sometime tonight when i accidentally clicked a link. XD

so now I am again kindled to come to Sally's comfort and enjoy its soothing delight



all of it because of my favorite Man of the semester

im so drawn to this period of my college life because of him.
well, everything happens for a reason. we wake up in the morning for a reason, we meet new people every day for a reason. we bump to a stranger some time for a reason.
I met my favorite Man of the semester for a reason and im sticking to one man only, to him only.

*he's nothing special. he's just my favorite Man of the semester.
and i study alot in a subject because of him. haha XD

memories

Number 1.

He went up riding in a silver vehicle with tinted window; two cars were following him in a manner which appeared to intimidate other cars. Nobody seemed to know his new Toyota Innova. It was the first time he did not walk for seven kilometers. A lot have obviously changed.

Her white shirt was wet of perspiration because of her hike through a steep road up to a hallowed mountain, her legs and feet was almost numb, her hair was so wet that sweat flows through her head, she was really thirsty and exhausted so she tried to rest a bit.

She was standing in front of a glass see though door which seemed to be newly cleansed with a poster which says “Restricted Area. Do not enter” on the upper left side of the metal handle when she saw him, the man who told her how to be loved, the way how God loves his child, and how to love in return, the way how people should love God back. Right then and there her heart thawed. She missed him very much.

He was talking to an old woman who was frantically laughing beside him. She taught that the old woman was laughing because of something he said and she also though that the old woman was laughing to impress him and let him know that he was a really funny man of God. She saw him looked at her and smiles, so she smiled back and waved hello, he laughed hesitantly, maybe because the old woman was still laughing while talking beside her. He then faced the old woman and talked a little bit more, she was still staring at him. She missed him very much.

He walked out of the “Restricted area” and looked at her friend and her, like telling them “Come here and talk to me”, so she and her friend walked to the glass door but halfway through, people started taking his hand and his blessings, she and her friend stopped, they waited until he was alone in front of the glass door. Finally, they came close to each other again, her favorite person in Pangasinan. She eyed him through it all. She missed him very much.

He started talking to her and her friend. He asked her why was she present at the mountain top, she smiled and said that she did not have classes, while on the back of her head she thought that even though she have classes, she would skip it just not to miss this moment. He grinned, chuckled in affirmation and said Oh yes, it’s a Saturday and you don’t have classes. She was speechless. Then her friend gave him a magazine with an article that her friend wrote for him. He smiled and laughed and her friend and he talked about it. Her eyes never left his face as they spoke. He might have melted if she has eyes which shoot like a laser gun. She missed him very much.

The memories of the past five years came rushing through her mind; halo-halo on a rainy afternoon, lunch at Greenwich, free Rosaries, Mt. Carmel, bracelets, shirts, one hundred pesos and a lot more valuable treasures which was buried deep in her heart. She missed him very much.

Yesterday's conversation was all it took for her to realize that he really is now far from home, Bataan. She wanted to hug him but she froze when he was right in front of her talking.
People started coming from different places as soon as they saw him. She and her friend were eaten by the crowd so they left instead. The last glance was all she had. She missed him very much.

She never saw him again that close after the Mass. He already perfected the act of hiding and leaving early.


Number 2.

While sitting sadly at a white plastic chair, somebody passed by glanced at her which she caught. It was A.
The memories of her and him came rushing but she composed herself.
She shouted stop at herself and strangled her sobbing heart.
She looked back and forgot about it.
She felt intense.

Pasek andPaul's Edges

I was reading through Live Feeds in facebook when I saw a shared video entitled
"Boy With Dreams"

i was bored so i clicked the play button

and there was I, stuned by their music!
I loved it the first time I played it.

Boy With Dreams is one of the Song Cycles from the musical EDGES composed by Benj Pasek and Justin Paul. I searched their other videos in youtube and I love all of it!!!

Pasek and Paul are an American composer/lyricist living in New York City

my favorite song is entitled LYING THERE sang by Farah Alvin


their music is just awesome!


im so excited to fly to the US to watch the musical on stage!

and im more excited to finally receive a CD compilation of their Musical



www.pasekandpaul.com

12 Little Things Every Filipino Can Do to Help Our Country

1. Follow traffic rules -- Why is that the most important? The answer is simple. Traffic rules are the simplest of our laws. If we learn to follow them, it will be the lowest form of national discipline that we can develop. Since it is totally without monetary cost, it should be easy for us to comply with, and therefore should provide a good start.

2. Whenever you buy or pay for anything, always ask for an official
receipt. - -- If a seller does not issue an official receipt when you
buy a product, the seller may or may not remit the tax to the government. Without an O.R., there is no record of the sale transaction, and the tax that you paid may not be remitted to the Bureau of Internal Revenue.

3. Do not buy smuggled goods. Buy local, buy Filipino. --- It may not be good economics to buy 100 percent local products. What I suggest is for us to take a "50-50" buying attitude. This means that we must develop the attitude of using 50 percent of our budget for local products and the other 50 percent for imported choices.

4. When you talk to others, especially foreigners, speak positively of our race and our country - -- this is best addressed to the rich and the middle class in our country, who have contact with the outside world. It is they who talk to, dine or deal with foreigners either here or abroad. It is what they say and do which creates impressions about us among foreigners.

5. Respect your traffic officer, policeman, soldier and other public
servants --- There is nothing like the power of respect. It makes a
person proud. It makes one feel honorable. At the same time, courtesy to others is good manners. It is class and elegance and kindness. It is seeing the value and dignity in the other man. It is, in fact, a mark of a most profound education.

6. Do not litter. Dispose your garbage properly. Segregate. Recycle.
Conserve. - -- As Louis Armstrong says in his song: "I see trees of
green, red roses, too, I see them bloom for me and you and I think to myself, what a wonderful world."

7. Support your church. - (or charitable/ civic organizations -- :-)

8. During elections, do your solemn duty. - -- Honesty, more than a
masteral or doctorate degree, is what gives credibility. And credibility is essential because it is a leader's link to the people. It is what makes the people look to one direction, follow a common vision, and perform a uniform act. In short, credibility is what makes people follow the leader.

9. Pay your employees well. --- No exercise is better for the human
heart than to reach down and lift someone else up. This truly defines a successful life. For success is the sum, not of our earthly possessions, but of how many times we have shown love and kindness to others.

10. Pay your taxes. --- In 2003, P83 billion was collected from
individual income taxes. But 91 percent of this amount came from salaried workers from the government and private sector, people who had no choice since their income taxes were withheld mandatorily. Only P7 billion of the P83 billion came from businessmen and professionals like doctors, lawyers, accountants and architects, among others.

11. Adopt a scholar or adopt a poor child. --- You can make a difference in the future of our country by making a difference in the world of children.

12. Be a good parent. Teach your kids to follow the law and to love
our country. --- Today's children will someday rule and lead this world. But whether they will be bad rulers or good leaders will depend largely on how we raise them today. Our future is in the hearts and minds of our children.



by.
Alexander Lacson