(3:50 am) some random thoughts

i have been wanting to write something so that my blog would somehow be updated plus writing something relaxes me somehow but i havent really had time for my self the past week and wont be too for the couple of weeks forward. but its okay. i kinda wanted this anyway.

it is usually this time  of the day when my imaginative and talkative mind would function, i dont know why, but its kinda amusing. :))

it is almost four in the morning, the sun is about to shine again.
it is a brand new day.
a fresh day to start anew.
but for me, its just another day.

1. we only have one and a half month to prepare for the "Big Day" and Im kinda pressured right now so i can barely sleep. before our review started, most of the time I fall asleep at around midnight and wake up at around three or four in the morning (is that a sickness because i really dont know why that happens all the time) and sometimes i can not sleep up until two in the morning, that's the time when I start to pray the Rosary until I end up snoring. But the past days, after our lectures in the review center, I havent been able to sleep. I try to close my eyes for about an hour and try to just doze off but all I see are the lectures and discussions and notes and/or all I think about are the stuffs that i studied or the stuffs that i need to study, and then i would stand up form my bed and begin reading again, but with an agitated and tired state of mind, the reading isnt really helpful, its almost like wasting time because the things wont get stuck in the memory. And because of this, I end up feeling bad and lethargic the whole day.
for now, im just so excited to finish this off and get this over with, just like college.
a little more sacrifice. a little more sleepless nights.

2. yeah, him again.
dont you feel this way too during this time of the day?
you miss that one person who will forever be special to you no mater what and just think about things you wanna do together (kinda like daydreaming during the night. haha!)
the thought of him not only makes the butterflies in my stomach fly but also make my brain cells function and my imagination explore. :}

after june 28, im going to do everything that i want to.
im going to tell people what they're supposed to do.
its about time to live life to the fullest.
about time to live life like there's no tomorrow.